my wallpaper
my home screen says
“ i am sad in a way that is exhausting and painful “
and i have never felt anything more
than that.
i feel it so deep because that’s me
that’s exactly how i’m coping
everyday.
i try to do better for me
everyday
i crawl mentally
everyday
i’m pushed back to zero
i see my efforts
i see them
but
everyday
i’m back to that spot
everyday
i’m hurting
and for the first time
i can’t even be more positive
about it.