unable to find peace
my heart aches
would be amazing to go back
to when there was nothing
when nothing was everything
then it was lovely,
beautiful
i’ve got a blade
and i’ve never been more ready
pray for me when i’m gone
pray it’s not the beginning of my misery.
i say
i’ve come to a conclusion
and i know
if i don’t act on it
it will only bring more sadness
these days i only look for quicker ways
to get what’s best for me
an end to this misery
i let the tears flow
just because it would ease the burden
maybe just a little bit.
but it works
temporary feelings
lifetime scars.
i wish for it to end
more than anything
i know sometimes i think i’m better
but half of the time
i’m in denial
trying to use other things as a shadow.
my absolute cover.
things are what they are.
and if things don’t change
then the elimination method
would be the best option.
what she thinks when her eyes are closed.
– taw🥀
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